I'm not smart. Used to think I am. But no, I'm not.

A very well-needed update from yours truly.

Was initially inspired to write a lot of stuffs down here but it's all gone now. Something was distracting me.

But let's move on.

I've been feeling lonely lately. If you know me (or you think you do), you must be thinking, "What the hell, you've been lonely for a long while now, okay?". I don't know - this feeling didn't hit me before this and I'm serious when I said I had never felt lonely. I've always felt rather contented with myself, spending time with myself and no one else. But things have changed. A lot have changed actually. I don't know where to begin with. I guess it is true that people come and go. It's just too bad that the people around me go without any traces. I wonder if that's a good thing after all.

On a lighter note however, CNY preparation has been rather slow. Decorations are all still lying on the floor. My father was depending on me to hang them up but oh dear, there's just simply too much to do at this moment. I have not even ironed the clothes I'm planning to wear during the festive season. Oh wait, I don't even know how to match them - and I'm unsettled as to which outfit I should don on the 1st day and the subsequent days. My bro (sarcastically) suggested that I don't wear anything then. But trust me, you don't want to see me without anything on.

Today has been all about washing up - from Fye's cage to my clothes, from the stinky shoes to the filthy carpet.

Am I looking forward to D day? - To be honest, NOT REALLY. Do I want to go to Penang for the vacation? - NOT REALLY. Not of the fault of the location, but I just want to spend a peaceful day at home, watching DVDs all day. I haven't got the chance to do that since God knows when. Hmmph... that should be a perfect Birthday present for me this year.