Tuesday, February 1, 2011

A very well-needed update from yours truly.

Was initially inspired to write a lot of stuffs down here but it's all gone now. Something was distracting me.

But let's move on.

I've been feeling lonely lately. If you know me (or you think you do), you must be thinking, "What the hell, you've been lonely for a long while now, okay?". I don't know - this feeling didn't hit me before this and I'm serious when I said I had never felt lonely. I've always felt rather contented with myself, spending time with myself and no one else. But things have changed. A lot have changed actually. I don't know where to begin with. I guess it is true that people come and go. It's just too bad that the people around me go without any traces. I wonder if that's a good thing after all.

On a lighter note however, CNY preparation has been rather slow. Decorations are all still lying on the floor. My father was depending on me to hang them up but oh dear, there's just simply too much to do at this moment. I have not even ironed the clothes I'm planning to wear during the festive season. Oh wait, I don't even know how to match them - and I'm unsettled as to which outfit I should don on the 1st day and the subsequent days. My bro (sarcastically) suggested that I don't wear anything then. But trust me, you don't want to see me without anything on.

Today has been all about washing up - from Fye's cage to my clothes, from the stinky shoes to the filthy carpet.

Am I looking forward to D day? - To be honest, NOT REALLY. Do I want to go to Penang for the vacation? - NOT REALLY. Not of the fault of the location, but I just want to spend a peaceful day at home, watching DVDs all day. I haven't got the chance to do that since God knows when. Hmmph... that should be a perfect Birthday present for me this year.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Life has been ... frustrating, I suppose. Well, just an update. Tata.

Friday, October 29, 2010

The Beauty of a Four-legged Friend.

Spent a Wednesday afternoon watching 'Hachiko : A Dog's Tale' with Jane. It's disappointing to not see her crying out freely when I have a pair of real swollen eyes exiting the theatre and she had the guts to laugh at me. Argh... COLD HEARTED!

It's surprising that the one thing that left a strong impression on my memory wasn't anything about the dog. I am weird. I remember when the daughter of Richard Gere's character (funny how I couldn't remember his name - perhaps it's due to the people around him keep referring to him as Professor) brought her boyfriend home and when the 2 men were happy grilling the slices of meat, Richard Gere wasn't interested in anything the boyfriend was saying and quickly stopped his blabbering by asking him, "Do you love my daughter?". He was stunned but he answered, "Yes." And Gere went on to say, "Good. That's the only thing you need to remember when you two are going through rough patches" (not quite the exact words from his dialogue). I was taken aback and was amazed at how true and witty that line was. I wonder if my father would ask the same thing to my boyfriend. I remember reading an article whereby the author said that we do not measure how much we love someone but by measuring how much we love someone when we do not love him/her. That line was confusing but the statement by Gere was enlightening.

Okay, let's get back to Hachi, the dog. Yes, that's the dog's name, not Hachiko. It did beg the question in my mind, why would they name the movie, Hachiko not Hachi but I guess that doesn't quite matter. The film wasn't that interesting until ironically, Richard Gere died. But I think they built the story perfectly to draw the degree of compassion out of the viewers to its optimum level. I like it also that they didn't put Hachi in the limelight throughout the whole film. For instance, during the wedding of Gere's daughter, Hachi was only sitting on the couch (or was it a chair?) observing the celebration. His life and his surroundings were viewed according to how Hachi would observe it. Everything happens naturally - nothing that an owner and his dog wouldn't do.

There was however a bit of a gap there that I think can be filled up. Like, the ball Professor was squeezing with. It got out of his hand when he collapsed. The writer could have had the ball returned to either Hachi in some way or just do something with it. They built it as it was a first for Hachi to fetch but didn't make anything out of it. I thought that wasn't tied up nicely. I also hated to see Hachi sleeping under a container on the railway line when the Professor's daughter could have done something about it. That was when I cried the most. I know the characters kept insisting that is what's best for him and we should let him do that blah blah blah... to show that human beings know what a dog wants but if we, humans do think we know what's best for him, it should also have come across our mind that he needs a shelter to spend the nights at and the dark and cold railway line isn't the best place to lay our heads on. Nobody seems to care where he would go in the night. They were all just amazed and moved by the fact that he waits outside the train station at 9 in the morning and 5 in the evening. That part to me, was a bit unrealistic. If I love my dad so much, I am pretty much sure that I will treat his precious stuffs like they're precious to me as well let alone, it's a living creature.

But all in all, it's a one hour and a half worth spending in the theatre. Many people claimed that they want a dog after watching this. Nah, it didn't inspire me in doing that at all. Maybe I've witnessed the downside of having one (or worse, more) right before my eyes hence the apathy. And it only goes to show Hachi's case is a one in a million. So don't put your hopes so high when you get yourself a dog. I remember once foreseeing my hamster will do all the same things like Hamtaro did in the famous Japanese cartoon but he didn't. Guess that gave me a lesson.

Wouldn't you want your dog to wait for you by the LRT station when you return home from a long day?

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Blogging here when I have a very important thing to do tomorrow. Should be gearing myself for it. But have been feeling lazy-ish all day long. This must be due to inertia.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

The newly bought coffee-maker sucks! Next - an OVEN!

Monday, September 20, 2010

She's Not Around

Sigh... If you're thinking of going to Borders in Times Square and savour its relaxed environment along with the opportunity to abuse the free-reading facility, drop that plan. Cause they're going to be relocated and are currently busy conducting this relocation sale and hence, the shut down of Starbucks, in my personal opinion, the only perks of Borders. Oh well, life sucks. It dashed my hope of studying there cause it's pretty quiet and the best is, I can take any law books off the shelf in case I need some reference. My school's library sucks. Most of the books I want have been taken by others for plagiarism purpose and it's packed with hordes of hard-workers (props to them).

Ended up at the other Starbucks in Times Square and let's just say it wasn't the best option for studying.

Damn it, should have gone to Kinokuniya in KLCC as I had initially planned yesterday.

If you're thinking, why am I writing such an insignificant story here - the answer is, someone whom I've always shared my itsy bitsy stories with is now on an msn sabotage plan and has sort of determined to duck out from social network. Hence, here I am, hoping that she will read this and return to where she truly belongs.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

I grew up thinking, I need no friends, want no friends and that friends mean nothing more than a live stage to signal to others that you're leading a normal life. But I guess I was wrong. At times, friendship is that one zone which you're looking to step onto no matter how many times you were given a chance to make a detour. It devours not only of your discomfort and pressure but also your dignity and strength. It's the only place you don't have to hide your inner feelings and the only place you feel you can share your world with. It's the place you can stage your story, no matter how lousy the plot and acting may be. It's the place where no one else but true friends can provide you.